Midnight Reverie

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[Intro]

[Female, almost whispering]

I still remember...

[Male, softly]

I know.

[Female]

No, you don't.

[Verse 1]

I used to think that time would make it right,

That all our ghosts would disappear at night.

I called it growing up, I called it letting go,

Never saw the damage that I'd leave below.

You gave me chances I don't deserve today,

I watched you break and looked the other way.

I thought you'd heal, thought you'd be fine,

While I kept wasting every warning sign.

Now every memory's a room I can't escape,

Every little wound has got a different shape.

I finally see what I refused to see,

The worst of what I did lives quietly in me.

[Verse 2]

You think I left because the love was gone,

Like I just woke up and decided to move on.

But you don't know how many nights I stayed,

Trying to save something that we never saved.

I learned to smile when something hurt too much,

To hide the flinch, to fear the slightest touch.

And now you're standing here, so soft, so kind,

But I still hear the echoes you left behind.

I know you're different, maybe you have changed,

But my heart remembers every time it rained.

You see a door that we could open wide,

I see the place where I was hurt inside.

[Pre]

If I could take the pain away, I swear I'd try,

But I can't give you back the years I let you cry.

[Female Vocal]

And if I took one step, would you understand

That being scared is not the same as saying I can't?

[Chorus]

[Male Vocal]

I'm sorry for the storms I made you weather,

For every time I swore we'd be alright.

I wish I could undo the things I've done,

And give you back the girl you were before that night.

[Female Vocal]

You can't just love me out of all this hurting,

You can't erase the past because you've changed.

A part of me still wants to walk towards you,

But another part still trembles at your name.

[Both Vocals]

We're standing on the ashes of forever,

With all the words we buried underneath.

You can't undo the things that broke us,

And I can't promise you I'm ready to believe.

[Verse 3]

And I remember times you hurt me too,

The little things you said, the things you didn't do.

The doors you closed, the nights you disappeared,

The careless words I swallowed through the years.

But I would laugh and tell myself it's fine,

Pretend your pain was bigger than mine.

I never told you where the damage grew,

I never let you see what I went through.

Maybe I was scared you'd turn away,

Maybe I thought silence was the price to pay.

I made a home inside the things unsaid,

And let resentment sleep beside my bed.

I don't blame you for the things you couldn't see,

I never showed you what was happening to me.

But I can't use my silence as a shield,

Or say I wasn't hurt because I never healed.

[Verse 4]

I never knew your silence had a sound,

I never saw the hurt you buried underground.

I thought you let it go, thought you didn't care,

You never said there was a weight for me to bear.

I know I left you with some scars of your own,

I know you faced some nights alone.

I can't rewrite the things I put you through,

Or ask you to forget what I never knew.

But don't mistake my fear for being cold,

Or think that I don't miss the days we used to hold.

Sometimes I almost reach across the space,

Then every old mistake comes back into place.

I want to know you as you are today,

But I'm still scared of what I might replay.

And even if my heart still knows your name,

It doesn't mean I can walk into the flame.

[Pre]

[Male Vocal]

I can't demand that you forgive me.

[Female Vocal]

I can't demand my fear should disappear.

[Male Vocal]

I wish my change could make you trust me.

[Female Vocal]

But change takes time, and time can't heal a year.

[Male Vocal]

I should have listened when you needed me.

[Female Vocal]

I should have told you when you hurt me too.

[Both Vocals]

We kept on bleeding in the silence,

Never knowing what the other carried through.

[Chorus]

[Male Vocal]

I'm sorry for the storms I made you weather,

For every time I swore we'd be alright.

I wish I could undo the things I've done,

But regret can't turn the wrong into the right.

[Female Vocal]

You can't just love me out of all this hurting,

You can't erase the past because you've changed.

A part of me still wants to walk towards you,

But another part still trembles at your name.

[Both Vocals]

We're standing on the ashes of forever,

With all the words we buried underneath.

You can't undo the things that broke us,

And I can't promise you I'm ready to believe.

[Bridge]

[Female Vocal]

What if I try and I fall apart again?

What if the ending never changes in the end?

What if I still love the boy you used to be,

But can't trust the man who's standing here with me?

[Male Vocal]

Then I won't ask you to forget the pain,

Or call your hesitation something I should change.

I spent so long not seeing what was right in front of me,

I won't make you prove your hurt to make me believe.

[Female Vocal]

And what about the things I did to you?

The words I never took the time to undo?

[Male Vocal]

I should have told you when they cut me deep,

Instead of hiding every wound I'd keep.

You can't repair what you were never shown,

And I can't blame you for the things I faced alone.

[Female Vocal]

I wish we'd learned to speak before goodbye.

[Male Vocal]

I wish I'd heard you when you didn't have to cry.

[Both Vocals]

We were young, we were scared, we were trying to survive,

Two hearts telling half-truths just to keep the other alive.

[Chorus]

[Male Vocal]

I'll carry what I did, I won't deny it,

I won't pretend that saying sorry makes it right.

I can't return the years I left you hurting,

Or turn your darkest memories into light.

[Female Vocal]

And I can't promise you a new beginning,

Just because I still remember how we were.

There are parts of me that want to stop this running,

And parts that fear the smallest step will hurt.

[Male Vocal]

I don't need you to become who you were.

[Female Vocal]

I don't know if I can trust who you are.

[Male Vocal]

Then I'll stop asking you to heal me.

[Female Vocal]

And I'll stop pretending I was never scarred.

[Both Vocals]

We're standing on the ashes of forever,

Two old souls beneath a fading moon.

Maybe love is not enough to save us,

Maybe healing doesn't happen all at once.

We can't undo the things we did to each other,

Can't make the past become a different truth.

But somewhere underneath the hurt and silence,

There's a little part of me that still remembers you.

[Outro]

[Female Vocal, almost whispering]

I'm not saying never...

I'm just scared of starting over.

[Male Vocal]

I know.

[Female Vocal]

And I don't know how long it'll take.

[Male Vocal]

You don't owe me an answer.

[Female Vocal]

I wish we had known how to love each other better.

[Male Vocal]

Me too.

[Female Humming Fades Out]

[Soft Guitar, Final Unresolved Chord]

[End]