After The Downpour

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0:00 — Intro | soft rain + piano]

Hm-mm-mm, mm Hm-mm-mm, mm

Rain is falling on my window Like it knows what I won't say Every drop brings back a memory I tried to wash away

I still keep your old messages Though I never read them twice Funny how a little screen can Hold a whole life overnight

Hm-mm-mm, mm I thought we'd have another day Hm-mm-mm, mm I didn't know you'd fade away

You found me underneath the grey sky When I wasn't looking for someone You made the quiet feel less empty You made the lonely nights feel young

We would talk until the morning Like tomorrow could wait outside And I believed every little promise Every time you said you'd stay by my side

Now your side of the room is empty But I still turn there in my sleep I hate that my heart remembers Things my mind wants to delete

Maybe I was too forgiving Maybe I mistook your words for truth Maybe I kept holding onto Someone who had already let me loose

And I—

I can't do this anymore.

Rain cuts out.

Heavy drums / distorted bass

You want the girl who never speaks? She's gone. You want the heart that kept forgiving? Move on.

I gave you every piece of me You treated every piece like nothing Now you hear my voice getting louder And suddenly you don't like something?

Oh, now you wanna call? Now you wanna know my name? You had me crying in the darkness Now you're scared to see my flame.

I won't break, I won't bend I won't chase you to the end You can keep your empty sorry You can keep your pretend

I was soft, I was yours Now I'm kicking down the doors You don't get to hurt me twice Then come asking me for more

No— I don't need your love tonight. No— I don't need you to make it right.

I remember every sentence Every lie you dressed as truth Every time I swallowed anger Just to keep the peace with you

Now the silence has a heartbeat And it's beating through my chest All the things I couldn't tell you Are the things I scream the best

Don't mistake my tears for weakness Don't confuse my calm with fear I was quiet 'cause I loved you Not because I needed you here.

So let the rain come down Let it drown this whole town I'm not hiding anymore I'm not waiting around

You can knock on my door But I won't answer like before There's a stranger in your memories And she doesn't love you anymore

I won't break, I won't bend This is where the story ends Not with tears upon my pillow But with fire in my hands

And if you hear me screaming Through the thunder in the night Just know I finally chose myself And I finally chose my life.

Hm-mm-mm, mm... The rain is softer now.

Hm-mm-mm, mm... And I can breathe somehow.

Your name is just a memory A sound I used to know.

Hm-mm-mm, mm...

Then let the rain...

Let it go.